Stuck in the Middle with You

I had a thought last night as I hung out with some of my best friends at supper club. We have been best friends for close to 17-20 years, which is just crazy because we are only 28 years old. We still joke around, listen to get other, and bring up the old and new times. Every time I'm with my friends, it takes me back and I don't want to leave. But Ben and I are in such different places in our life and I miss being able to hang out with my friends more. Not that Ben would mine, but we have to be there for the girls and I can't just get up and go whenever I want to anymore. Not that I dislike my lifestyle by any means, it's just hard to hear my friends talking about going out to dinner, happy hour, going shopping, reading a book, watching their favorite shows, etc. "Hard" really isn't even the right word, it's more "jealousy" that I want to be doing the same thing. I just wish we were all in the same place, and I know one day they will have kids and we will be able to all hang out again with our kids...I just have to patiently wait and enjoy the times when I do get to hang out with my friends.

Then I have my other friends that I run with who are the complete opposite. They have children that are older, they are older and have been working longer and are able to provide more for their family then we can. All week I heard them planning their trips to Disney World and other various vacations. I envy them so much and hope that one day we will be able to do all of those things. The girls are still too young to take and do stuff like that, so again I just have to wait patiently. The good news is I will have several words of wisdom for when we do go.

Needless to say, I’m stuck in the middle. Being in the middle only gives me the opportunity to enjoy my life as it is now and savor every moment with the girls and make them as happy as they can be. I look forward to sharing my words of advice with my best friends when they do have children. And I can’t wait to enjoy watching their children grow up, just like they have enjoyed watching the girls. Giving them the opportunity for a “date night” or a break and babysitting just like they have done for us. Also, seeing the girls faces when their Christmas present one year is a pair of Mickey Mouse Ears and tickets to Disney World. It’s exciting waiting and wishing all at the same time and I have a great husband, two beautiful children, and wonderful friends and family to be their with me the whole way!